I and My Lovely Bird (Short Story)

One day, I walked along through the small forest. I was singing, humming and swirled along, at that time I was so happy. I saw the flowers were blooming, butterfly was flying and the wind blew through the grass. The wind flowed softly and it spread out the fragrance, so fresh and tender. The ray of sun peeped from the boughs, as if the sun was shy.  

 I kept walking, my mouth still kept humming. At that time I was happy but I felt no one beside me. I suddenly got sad, I walked slower. My sadness picked the tears up so that my eyes were watery. When I mused about my sadness then I walked slower, I heard a bird tweeted. It turned me walked slowest and some steps ahead I heard the sound of bird clearer but the sound heard differently. It seemed hurt, sad, and pain yet the bird kept tweeting. My eyes looked around, above, left, right and suddenly stopped to the big tree. Again my sight looked above and walked nearer to the tree. I saw one nest perched on a big bough, I whispered myself “Where is the bird, I only see the nest”. Still I heard the bird tweeted, I walked nearer to the tree and tried to find the bird. Second time I whispered myself “Ohh.. Bird, I know that you are hurt, let me find you first”, my lips were grumble to find the bird. In around five steps ahead I found the dense grass and I saw the bird in the middle. I did not think twice, I took the bird from the grass immediately. The bird’s color was blue but looked pale, limp and the right wing was wound, I saw the bird wishfully. I myself promised to cure the bird.

I took the bird home quickly. As I arrived at home, I made the bird clean. After all I gave him medicine, food, drink and put the bird to the small cage. I felt so glad because I had a new friend. Day by day I took care of him and I could talk with him, I realized the bird could not talk nor speak but at least I had a friend. Every time I came to the cage, I always asked him, “Hi... Little blue bird, how are you.. Do you feel better now?”. The bird answered with gesture as if he felt better and I knew from his eyes. The bird tweeted beautifully. Woow.. I was surprised by its. I told him “hey you just like sing a song my dear come on keep tweeting”. I smile widely. The bird knew that I was happy at that time I gave him out from the cage. I told him “Come on, come out, we go to the garden. It’s time for you learning how to fly”. Most of time I spent my days with him, we talked each other, I played with him, I sang a song, even I could dance with him and when I sang a song, he replied with his sound beautifully. I was proud, I could cure his wound, and the bird became healthy. I love the bird very much, I thought that he was the only love and friend I had.

Sunday morning, I told to the bird after we had breakfast “My dear bird, you have to practice again.. :)”, the bird tweeted as if he nodded agree. And I replied “Yes of course how to fly. I know you have proven the way you fly, but I want you to be a good flier” the bird tweeted loudly, he knew and happy about it. I and my bird went to the meadow, there was one big tree. I sat on a log. The bird was on my shoulder. Again and again I asked him “Come on fly, if you feel tired, you can sit on my shoulder again”. The bird was so spoiled, sometimes he flied diligently and sometimes he was so lazy. Spontaneity I said something to him “Darling, I know that you love me, and I love you too. But I want you to be independent and not depend on me. My purpose is to cure and encourage you. One day you will go far away to find your nature, do not worry.. my love will never less. Anytime you can come to me and bring your spouse here”. The bird tweeted loudly, as if he would not go. His motioned regret, as if he knew what I was saying about. His gesture assured me that he did not want to go. And I assured him back that I would not leave him, “hey don’t worry about me, I’m Ok here. You know I lived alone before. In the mean time I found you. But I know that you will not with me for whole life time. My love is big for you, do you know How I love you..?. Now, you have to practice again “. At once the bird tweeted louder and louder. I smiled and the bird flied. After some time I did not realize while I was sitting the bird sat behind me. My thought was running, even I assured the bird, in the deep within I was so sad. If the bird leave, I will feel lonely. I strengthen myself for it. Suddenly, I was jerked by the bird but I smiled because of his sound, and I asked him to go home.

The next day, I woke up from slumber. I saw the time, and it showed morning time. As usual I went to make breakfast and checked the cage. I shocked because the bird has gone, I forgot to lock the cage. I was so nervous when I went out I did not find him. I looked at the back yard because I heard his sound tweeting. In short ordered I went to find him. He played with his friends, he flied around the trees, he teased his friends, so attracted. I shouted him “hey come on! Go back, you have not gotten your breakfast..!”. The bird flied hastily and came to me. I was afraid of losing him. The bird followed me and I thought he knew that I was angry. At home I told him “You know, it is prohibited for you if you go out without my permit, you got it…!!”. The bird tweeted sadly.

 I remembered the day when I left him, I bought some food for us. As I went back home, I did not find him, I yelled him but no answered. I moved around the house, my anger arose. I shouted “Hey bird, where are you..!!, did you know I go to buy some food for you, I bought you a favorite food, and why you go again, this is the second time you go without my permit!!”. I peeped through the window, and I saw him. He played with the same birds like yesterday, and another one came and played with him. I thought he has forgotten me, I myself grumbled “Now you have a good condition, now you can fly away, now you have some friends. I know that you have a right to do these, but I want you ask me first. You have to ask my permission to go outside, you forget that!!” I was so sad, I didn’t want to lose him. I was afraid being lonely, I gave him affection, I gave him love, I care so much about him, even more when he was sick and wound. Suddenly I was shocked by him. He chirruped beside the windows, I walked and looked outside. I saw from his eyes that he was happy to see me, but I was not!. I opened the door, he came in and chirruped. He wanted to show that he was fine and health enough and he was happy to have some friends. But he knew I didn’t happy with that and he sad, he stopped to chirrup and perch on the table. And stared on me, I knew he assured that he would not go, he just happy because he became well.

My awareness changed to him, I felt he denied me. I was thinking that I gave him the best but he didn’t appreciate it. The bird knew it, he was so sad. Even so many times he was chipping, tweeting to entertain me. He did it every day, and still I had a heart for him. For some times I teased him and we backed to our laughter, we share our world as if no one between us. But.. again I disappointed with him when he went with no permit, and went back home late at night. One day he perched on my right shoulder, he tweeted like to ask about permit, he wanted to go outside. I didn’t answer and I crumpled my face, I told him with regret “Bird if you want to go just go! As usual u didn’t need my permission even to go outside”. The bird fly. When he came home I told him “Bird, I love you. You are my best friend, you are the place I share, but I realized we cannot go along for whole life time. Now I give you a time to go, to find your nature, to breathe the fresh air, I don’t want to build a fence around you. I set you free even I love you. Again the bird tweet sadly. 

Some days after we chatted and I have conveyed about what I want and what I feel, the bird went again and back home. And on the next day he tried to ask about permission to go outside. I just nodded, and he flied. I sat on the couch and mused to my heart, I recalled when I met him. I was so happy but also I wanted to cure his wound and promised to give him back to the nature. Just thought I was wrong even I had a love but didn’t mean to be over protected. I didn’t deny I was afraid being lonely. But I forgot my purpose to the bird. I felt stumble and fall when my loneliness came, and these was so mixed into my thought. But I built my struggles to be strong.

 One evening time, the bird perched on my right shoulder like usual he did. He chirruped beautifully. I smiled on him, I told him “Go if you want to go outside, I love you dear. When you happy then I feel happy, when you feel down then I would be the same” the bird replied with his beautiful sound. And he flied away, I was standing and still looked at him. In a short time he came back on my shoulder. I told him “why you come at soon? Huh.. You like to fly, don’t you?” The bird looked sad. My eyes looked at the trees while I was talking to the bird ”Hey look, I see your friends on the trees, go with them, you have to join with them, and you must be happy”. Down deep within my heart, I was really sad. I pretended my feeling, I become a great pretender as if I was strong to face my loneliness. And the bird flied and looked back on me but I posed my face with a smile. The bird flied to find his friends.

At night when I went to sleep the bird came, he chirruped beautifully as if he sang a song. On my bed, I was crying. My tears rolled down hardly. I knew I would be alone and lonely. But I sincere with all the things I have done to him. This is the way I love him, to let him go, to let him free, to find his happiness. I was thinking  "If God wills, He will find us back. If not it means he has own life. So If I dont want to find him again, it doesn't mean to forget but I'm trying do not depend on him".  

What is Love? What is an affection? What is care? What is sincerity? Yes.. Love doesn’t always to have. It’s really hard, other words may say Love does not demand and better have no expectation when we have given our loves to those we love. Realizing the life, it can be to our children, our lovers, our friends, because when we expect something it makes hard to our feelings. God knows best even He has met us to the people with their own purpose yet dont be sad if they go away from you or gruffly to leave, even we've done the best for someone we love but they go. That’s hurt but for sure kindness and love always valuable to those who sincere with the deed. Good deed will always linger and God never sleeps, he counts every kindness and every Love we have shared.